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Post by Scarlet on Dec 2, 2009 22:26:12 GMT -5
December 2nd, 2009. 10:16 pm
How am I to tell between what is real and what my mind fabricates anymore? So many things in my life are so amazing. I've some of the very best friends, I'm passing all but one of my classes, I'm in love with the most insanely amazing guy ever, and I have a tiny little crush on someone else at school. But as well, I never see that amazing guy, and the person I kinda maybe have a little crush on, I'm too scared to talk to. If only I weren't so shy. Though, at the same time, it is qualities such as my shyness and over-active blushing that makes him love me so...I want to change who I am, but I know I can't, and I never would if he loves me like this. Ah, who in the hell am I kidding, I wouldn't change. I love my friends and he makes me the happiest person alive. Though we don't often meet...oh, when we do though! How romantic it is, sneaking off, knowing we're both dead if we were to be caught...But I'm trying to keep this at least PG-13, so lets not go into that...Oh, but how he is my life. Though I at times wish to take my life, I think I know that I never could, knowing how it would hurt him....Well, I'm going to quit bitching now, for I know that none are honestly entertained with this information. Bye, loves! ~Cheyenne Hammock <3'z Jaymz Kauffman
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Post by Scarlet on Dec 13, 2009 1:49:09 GMT -5
Bwhahaha Aren't I a loser! I skipped Millers detention to go to the dance, and the douche I was gonna go with ditched me! Ha, guys can suck at life big time ;P. But I suppose I'm not gonna let that shit bug me anymore. I'm tired of changing for people. Like me, that's awesome, if not...suck it and fuck it, cuz I don't need youuu. At least, that's how I wish I was!!! But I'm too loving and caring for that and I HATE IT -_- I have too much compassion for man kind...Except for Josh Eversole...He can die ~Cheyenne Hammock
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